STORYTIME #1 : what does it feel like to be an 8th grader?
Saturday, August 25, 2012
Lol. Thank you, thank you! some of you guys say that I am young. I’m
thankful. Seeing lots of comments about my age are funny and brighten up my
mood! I don’t want to grow up at all so I find this moment when I was called
young to be a good memory, hehe.
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Thank you for complimenting me, everybody.
[W A R N I N G : long and
boring post below!]
[To begin, I’m
disclaiming the following story to be not sensitive to me at all. It is what
actually happen to me but don’t feel weird, okay. I’m fine when it happened I’m
fine by now and I’m fine even if it happen again.]
Ok so, I happened to be bullied on 7th
grade. No, no, I don’t feel sad about it so you guys shouldn’t feel that
way too! Let me tell you about the story! Lol, my school friend(s) will never
see this nor find my blog so I feel free to write about this. I don’t really
care anyway.
[how I start my 8th
grade will be down below. I don’t want to clickbait everyone by posting this
with ‘I was bullied’ or ‘I don’t have friends.’ etc as the title. So yea, I
give it an ordinary title.]
My parents don’t know about me being bullied because they work really hard
and I don’t want to add anymore burden to them. I wasn’t acting like I am fine,
because it is fine. I don’t feel anything about being bullied so there’s
nothing to be sad about, maybe that’s why my parents didn’t ask about my school
life unless it’s about grades.
I had some friends as a newcomer, you see I am a new student in my
school because I registered as a 7th grader. But there’s this girl
in the class who was also a new student and she was jealous because I made lots
of friend in a short time. she started saying stupid things about me and
because I was new, people started believing her as well. I ended up losing
faith and of course, losing friends. Really, by the end of the 7th
grade year [which was June] I had 0 friend from this junior high.
I talked many many to my elementary
school friend about how much I hated everyone. About how stupid everyone is for
believing such ridiculous things from ridiculous person. I managed to embrace
[lol] the loneliness and this made me an introverted person. I stop making
friends because how hard I tried to, they don’t want to talk to me because they
heard the news already. I had such a bad image but guess what, THAT DOESN’T
MAKE ME SAD AT ALL! I don’t care about what people really see in me and what
people want me to be. I really, really enjoy being alone because I also talked
many many to myself, telling myself that this kind of lifestyle is ok too.
The bullying didn’t stop right there. I played [because I don’t play it
anymore] an Indonesian online game Ayo Dance and ex-friends of mine sent rude
messages to me. every day. I don’t play the game every day but in the mail you
can see when you receive the message. Well, I wasn’t bothered because I still
play the game anyway eventho they sent messages every day, but I stopped
because I was bored.
There’s also a subject in my school called Character Building [it is
ridiculous. I don’t feel like I’m being trained to be a better person at all.]
and on a session, we need to get a piece of paper and gave it a title ‘good
things about me’ and another paper with ‘bad things about me’. Even though I’m
not a smart student, I’m not that stupid to not see it coming. My inner self was laughing because I know what they’re
gonna write about me, lol. Long story short the paper was given back to me and
it was literally blank on the ‘good things about me’ and rude captions on the
‘bad things about me’. Well, maybe, maybe I was a bit sad. But right now I find
reading mean comments about yourself from people who don’t know who you are,
what you do, what you like, and what you think a really fun things to do. To
put it simple they don’t understand you but they act like it. Hahaha, it’s
ridiculous but let them be.
Yeah, by the time I started this blog, I am in the middle of having 0
friends. There’s nothing wrong with it, guys, that’s why I begin to write here
to find company. Thanks to lots of you who wanted to talk to me!
I started 8th grade really, really awkwardly. No one wanted to
talk to me in class and like every other beginning school year, everyone’s
gonna meet their friend and chat a little bit. It was different from me. I
hated arriving at school early because I had to sit like an idiot every time
while everybody was chatting.
I’m not the smartest one in class but still manage to be on top 10 on 7th
grade so I hope I will also do well on 8th grade. Bet they are
jealous of me because I still do well in class, lol. I was supposed to have
mental breakdown or things like that, right? Be smarter than me if you can bitches.
ANYWAY SO! I spent [and spending, and will spend] the entire time of
awkwardness in class by writing. People will find me as an even weirder (?) person
for spending the entire time writing but they will also say, of course, she has no friend to talk with.
Again, I don’t find this sad nor sensitive, so feel free to laugh to it.
BUT!
One day, I was browsing twitter and I came across a friend from school and
she introduced me to a k-pop friend from school too [my twitter’s bio was covered with k-pop stuff, you know what I mean.]
and I didn’t know how, we are friends now. Her name is Dian, she is an 8th
grader as well eventho she is older than me and she is the very first person I
will call a friend in the high school. After hearing bad rumors about me she
still wanted to befriend me and also introduced me to some of her friend. So
I’m not all alone anymore guys J
There are a lot of good people out there and I’m glad to find one for
myself. Shout out to the k-pop world as well, it helps me make friend!
Anyway, I still find myself writing every time because writing is my
friend now. The whole class think I’m weird but that’s all I care. If they
don’t want to know what I truly am, that’s ok. Even if this new class don’t
like me I’m making myself ready.
Listen guys, you don’t have to keep people who don’t appreciate you
enough.
Lastly, sorry for the extremely negative post today. I wasn’t feeling sad
– but the comment section reminds me about past things so I think it is a good
day to share to you guys. It happened in the past [although the effects are
staying with me] so I barely feel anything [BUT I BARELY FEEL ANYTHING FROM THE
START THO.] about the fact that I have a little number of friends in real life,
lol. I actually find a lot of company on social media and in this blog with you
guys. So please continue to company me.
-Reyna.
1 Comments
Reyna there's nothing wrong with posting a 'so called' negative post. any day. any day when you feel like it. as you said before your blog is entirely yours so please feel free to share anything to us! stay strong bae!
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